The Reasons I Stopped Writing …(and what it means to you)

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I am just enjoying the night, it is beautiful out. I am sitting straight up, legs crossed under me (because this is the only way to sit for perfect focusing, right?), sipping my black coffee. My computer is in front of me and my journal is open on the table beside me. For the first time in weeks, I want to write. So I shall.

        There was a time… when I was writing every day, I was creating, editing, changing and growing all the time. I was getting answers to prayers even as I wrote them down. I could learn the lessons as my fingers typed out the words. But, somewhere in the last year, it seems that I lost my multi-focus ability and instead can only do one thing at a time. In other words, I had no idea what to do most of the time, because my brain was re-working old connections and the old way was not good enough anymore.

        As hard as it was for me, I had chosen to put aside my writing so my focus could be on other needs. However, eventually I realized that I am never truly settled or at peace if I am not writing. It’s like praying and breathing, if I go without it, I know I am not balanced. But the pause was really good for me.

        So, here is what I have learned in the last few months. Yes, it is brief, but … it’s good truth anyway 🙂

1)   Trust The Journey!
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Proverbs 3:5-6 is one of my favorite verses, because it focuses on trusting throughout the journey. It says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all your ways, and He will make your paths straight.” I think that throughout this stage of my life, I didn’t realize I was making a journey until I got to the end of it. Hopefully, you will realize it sooner. Now that I am on ‘the other side,’ I know I was going through a major shift in my thinking and focus. I had to trust that the journey I was on was the right place for me, even if I couldn’t see couldn’t have done it without the journey and neither can you!

2)   Trust The Timing!

Patience, young one, it will all happen in the right time… yep, the idea of being patient makes me want to stomp my feet in frustration. I want all of my success to be instantaneous, kinda like a microwave version of life… until I remember that most microwave food is only sub-par. When we exhibit patience, it allows us to see more than just the moment of waiting, it gives us perspective that we need time in most situations. The Bible references patience to planting a garden, because it says, “and let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up (Gal 6:9).” Remember that any harvest must first go through germination before growth and becoming harvest-ready.

3)   Trust The Passion!

I am still amazed that I feel so strongly for writing. I am equally amazed that I feel so strongly that I should be working a 9-5 AND running a direct sells business. I know that I am right where God wants me to be. However, do you know how many times over the last year I have doubt each of these areas? EVERY DAY! Every day, several times a day! I have literally had nothing to go on, but this insane idea that I was hearing God’s voice. All I have had to lean on was that God promises that even during adversity, we will “hear His voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it (Isaiah 30:21).’” Even as I wasn’t writing, I knew He still was calling me to do it, so I just kept believing and praying through this time.

4)   Trust The Period of Rest!

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To trust in the rest, you will be calm, reflect and activating your faith in every moment. Resting is not just sleeping, it is being at peace with your circumstances. It is knowing that you will be okay, because God is watching out for you. Jesus reminded us in Matthew 11:29-30 that, “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; … you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” I’ve heard it said that God will never bring us through anything that will hurt us, and that is true. However, maybe we should also remember that active trust leads to a mindset of being rested, which, in turn, leads to a lifestyle where the burdens are light. It may seem like you will never get here, but you will!

5)   Trust The Future!

In music, the whole orchestra will be playing and it is beautiful listening to the sounds swirling, rising, building and enveloping you as they all play in unison. But then, they all pause and wait… and walk off the stage, never to touch another musical instrument again, because obviously, a pause means it’s the end, right? RIGHT? These musicians shouldn’t  try again or believe they had a true passion for music, after all, the conductor added in a pause… do you get my point here? Don’t give up, because if your passion is where you are meant to be at, you will be back. Just like I did, yes, that’s right – I’m back again, loving my passion, ready to follow God in a new direction and excited to see what we are planning on doing this year!!

As you journey through your life, I pray that you learn to go with the ebbs and flow of what is happening. Allowing yourself to stress out is never a good idea, instead, try to find the good and make peace with the situation you are in. Always keep growing, always make the changes that are needed, but don’t do it at the expense if your peace. Comment below how you are learning to trust your personal journey.

With love and many blessings ~

Lydia

 

2 thoughts on “The Reasons I Stopped Writing …(and what it means to you)

  1. I know the feeling. I took off from writing thinking it wasn’t that important to me. But, this year I realized it’s the only thing that actually challenges me and brings me joy.

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